"Sometimes growing up makes me start to look at my family and think that everything's superficial now.But i guess, that's just growing up. The family ain't changed.I've changed. Hahhs.Oh man!!!!"wow. the above was ripped of ivan's 24 January 2006, Tuesday's entry, entitled My Roots.
wow. and i thought i was the only feeling it this way.
like suddenly the house is no longer warm, no longer where i like to be.
because i thought my family changed and there's no longer love.
but i realised i was the one who changed, because i've found true love, i've experienced true warmth.
in God.
i've grown mature, i've changed.
i'm no longer afraid of the unrest in the family.
even more wow was how ivan goes on to say how he's trying to bring his siblings back to Christ again.
he didnt give up on them.
in fact, if you read tht entry, you will see how much love he has for his family.
know what?
tht entry of his feels like a followup of wht God told me a few days back.
i want to be the light of the family.
from now on, i'll show them how much i've changed, for the better and not the worse.
and to do tht, i got to love my family like ivan loves his.
i want to love my family including their faults.
i've got to bring love into this family.
"Argh.. Come and experience the fatherhood of God."it's great love you've never experienced before.
true love you can't find anywhere else.
thank You Daddy.
-ruoen
2:28:00 pm